Sunday, May 8, 2011

I Can't - Ben Sollee



I Can't - Ben Sollee

This ain't the life I thought I'd live
This ain't the home I hoped we'd make
This ain't the path I thought I chose
This ain't the sky I'd hoped we'd see
This ain't the tree I thought would grow
This ain't the god to which I pray
This ain't the song I thought I'd write
These ain't the words I want to say
I can't be your man

This ain't the flag I thought we'd raise
This ain't the wind I'd hoped would blow
This ain't the ship I thought would sail
This ain't the rose I'd hoped would bloom
This ain't the play I thought we'd stage
These ain't the hills I'd hoped we'd roam
This ain't the sword pulled from the lake
Yours ain't the heart I want to break
But I can't be your man

This ain't the end I thought it'd be
Are you someone I’ve loved before
In this the song the caged bird sings
Is there some law I choose to ignore
This is a faith I must defend
I’ve tried, I can't pretend
There is a hope I must contend
We'll find the thread with the strength to mend
I can't be your man

Least not this time around
And it's something unpredictable
Like where a leaf might fall
And it's something unrestrainable
Like a rooster's morning call
I can't be your man

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Ama Loses Some Wisdom

So, I've needed to get my wisdom teeth out for over a year now, but I'm terrified of the dentist. In the middle of March, one of my wisdom teeth got infected and pretty much forced me to go see an oral surgeon. I went to the surgeon on March 31 and was scheduled to have all four teeth surgically removed on May 3.

All I thought about for that month was my surgery... constantly. I was so anxious about getting it done since I have never had any type of surgery and have never been put to sleep. I have cried and stressed for the last month. Now, after the surgery has been over, let me tell you I over thought it way too much.

I barely slept the night before. Tuesday morning I got up, got dressed, woke up James, and waited for my mom. We headed to the oral surgeon. I started crying in the waiting room because I was so scared. They called me back and the rest is a blur.

After checking my heart and a reassuring pat on the head from the surgeon, they hooked my up to machines and gave me some gas. They hooked up the iv. The last thing I completely remember is them covering my up and putting a thing in my mouth to keep it open. I vaguely remember waking up sometime during surgery for just a moment. I could hear them talking and felt them give me Novocaine.

After they finished, I was taken to recovery. I remember bits and pieces of this. Apparently, I said some silly things and freaked out a bit about waking up. After a little time in recovery, they sent me home. I don't really remember the ride home. James and my mom made me lie on the couch while James ran and got food and he and my mom cooked mashed potatoes.

I guess what I'm saying is that it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. It was one of the simplest things I have every done.

I'm taking four days off work to heal and charting the swelling on my Facebook. I thought I was feeling better today, but I'm still really sore, tired, and drugged. So here's some pictures:

Day of surgery:



Day after surgery:



So, if you need to get your wisdom teeth out, definitely get it done under anesthesia if you can. It's definitely worth it.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Thirty

Day Thirty - A picture of someone you miss

My Nana. I wish she could see where I am now. I think she would be proud. I miss her all the time.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Nine

Day Twenty Nine - A picture that can always make you smile

This picture always makes me smile. Cassie, James, and I bowling.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Eight

Day Twenty - A picture of the person you look up to

My mom

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Seven

Day Twenty - A picture of your pet

The piggies

Andy & Howie



Lucy & Petal

Friday, March 18, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Six

Day Twenty Six - A picture that describes your life

My life really is a beautiful mess.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

From the Couch to 5K

Anyone that knows me knows that I have been trying to lose weight. The wedding has been the kick in the butt I've needed to actually stick to a long term plan. I have been working out five days a week for the last couple of weeks, and I have started to see a difference in my endurance level. Not much of a difference in weight, but every time I finish a workout I feel so accomplished.

Anyway, I have heard about this program called the Couch-to-5K. Essentially, you go from couch potato to running 5K in about nine weeks. It seems like a challenge. I like challenges. So tomorrow morning before work, I'm going to start running. I plan on doing three days running and two days cycling or working on the elliptical, but we will see how this running thing wears on me.

I will keep you guys updated on my progress! Here's hoping I can handle this challenge.

More info on Couch-to-5K: http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml

And here's the workout schedule for the next nine weeks...

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Five

Day Twenty Five - A picture of the best time in your life.

A few weeks ago, James took me to the gun range. It was awesome!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Four

Day Twenty Four - A picture of you when you were a different person than you are now

I was a freshman in college when this was taken. If only I had known what was coming.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Three

Day Twenty Three - A picture you had no idea was being taken

No clue whatsoever.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty Two

Day Twenty Two - A picture of a time in your life that’s over, but you wish it wasn’t

I miss all of us living in the same place and seeing each other all the time.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty One

Day Twenty One - A photo of someone you find attractive

Johnny Depp... My celebrity crush.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twenty

Day Twenty - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

I want to go to St. Maarten. It has an awesome airport where the planes go right over you when landing if you are on the beach. Plus, it's just gorgeous. Right now, it's looking like our honeymoon destination.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Nineteen

Day Nineteen - A photo of you when you were happy

He always makes me happy.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Eighteen

Day Eighteen - A photo from a trip you'll never forget

James and I followed a band from Richmond, VA to Greenville, NC all in two days. It was a lot of fun, and I definitely won't forget it.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Seventeen

Day Seventeen - A picture of someone that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Again, four years isn't exactly recently, but it's my challenge and I can count it if I want to.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Sixteen

Day Sixteen - A photo of one of your favorite family members

Well this is more than one... Oh well.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Fifteen

Day Fifteen - A picture of someone you have recently become really close with

Well... if you count four years or so as recent.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Fourteen

Day Fourteen - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

I can't imagine how my life would be without him in it.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Twelve

Day Twelve - A picture of something you love

My engagement ring. It symbolizes how we've grown as a couple, and how much growing we have left to do. I can't wait to spend my life with him.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Eleven

Day Eleven - A picture of something you hate

I HATE standing in line... for anything.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Ten

Day Ten - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

Lauren and I have gotten in plenty of odd situations together. She is an awesome friend and fun to hang out with.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Nine

Day Nine - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

My Dad



My Mom & Stepdad Kelly

Monday, February 28, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Eight

Day Eight - A picture that makes you laugh

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Seven

Day Seven - A picture of you more than 10 years ago

Here's a picture from sometime around the time I was 13 or 14.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Six

Day Six - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Lady GaGa

Why? Because it would be awesome. The end.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Five

Day Five - A picture of you and you best friend

I have two best friends James and my mom.

James has seen me at my worst and at my best and loves me just the way I am. I am thankful for him everyday. I consider myself very blessed.



My mom has been there for everything. We've gone from mother-daughter to best friends. I love her and am thankful that she is here. She taught me the power of second chances, and I will always be grateful for that.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Four

Day Four - A picture of something you want to do before you die

I want to travel across Europe, but I specifically want to go to Greece.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Three

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

I love the show Glee. It's funny and always entertaining. I look forward to it every Tuesday.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day Two

Day Two - A picture of you and the person that knows everything about you

My mom... I can't imagine life without her in it.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Thirty Days, Thirty Pictures - Day One

I've been talked into doing one of these so here we go... It's going to be a long month.

Day One - A picture of yourself and ten facts



1. I love the color purple.
2. I collect all things Sherlock Holmes.
3. I have an obsession with all things Apple.
4. I'm so ready for May 2012 - Graduation and marrying my best friend? It can't get here fast enough.
5. I want to travel everywhere.
6. I love daisies.
7. I'm slightly OCD.
8. I desperately need a vacation.
9. I worry too much.
10. I'm ready for everything the future has to offer.

Valentine's and Turning 23

The week of Valentine's Day is always interesting for me. I get to celebrate Valentine's and my birthday all in one week. This year was no exception.

For Valentine's, James and I spent the day together. I collect Chamilia charms, James bought me one for my Valentine's Day present. It is a retired charm that says "love" with a little heart and stone on it. It's so cute! Here's a close picture from the internet of it:

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Friday, James and my friends Cassie and Lauren took me out to eat and drink for my birthday. We went to PFChangs and Cooper's Ale House. It was more fun than I have had in a long time. Cassie stayed the night and went to breakfast with me the following morning on my actual birthday. After she left, I went to my Mom and Kelly's house to see family. Finally, I went to dinner with James since he had to work that day. Sunday, I went to lunch with Cassie and Megan. After lunch, we went and looked at the venue I picked out, tried on dresses, and went to the mall. All in all it was a fun and awesome weekend.

Today, I got my present from James. He bought me a new computer since my old one got damaged. This isn't just any computer, it's a Macbook Pro. I have a love affair with Apple products and have missed my Mac since I got rid of the last one. I will never own another PC.

I had a very good birthday. Hopefully, next year will be just as good if not even better.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Maybe This Will Work

One of my big goals for the wedding is losing weight. Since I have about a year and three months to go, I decide to start now. This tracker below is the minimum amount of weight I would like to lose. Hopefully, I will keep at this time.


Sunday, January 30, 2011

A New Beginning

So, it's been almost a year since I last blogged, and I have the itch again. Maybe I'll actually keep it up this time. A lot of things have changed in the past year, and it's time for an update. So here's what has happened in the last few months.

*I graduated in August with my Bachelors in History with a minor in Classical Studies. I am so glad that that stage of my life is finished.

*Two weeks after I graduated, I started graduate school. I'm just starting my second semester in the program, and I love it! I'm working on my Masters in Library and Information Studies. It's a great program. The professors are nice, helpful, and don't take themselves as seriously as my undergrad ones did. I'm really enjoying it.

*I still work in retail. It's a fun job (unless it's the Christmas season). I'm hoping to be able to get into some library opportunities in the near future though.

*We moved to a two bedroom, two bath apartment in July. It's nice to have the extra space, but we are planning to move again this summer hopefully. The neighborhood has gone downhill, and we are ready to get out of it.

*The biggest thing that has happened to me is that James and I got engaged on December 11. We've been dating almost three years, and I couldn't be happier. He asked in our living room after I came home from work that night. As of right now, we are planning a May 19, 2012 wedding. I want to be done with school and have plenty of time to plan exactly the kind of wedding we want. Here's a picture of my engagement ring with our bands and on my hand:





So what should you expect from this blog now? Stories about work and school, updates about our big move, and most importantly, what's happening in the wild world of planning our wedding.

Buckle up. It's going to be a wild ride.